I can’t quite believe my littlest is now over 4 months old! 4 months of watching a beautiful bond form between my two boys. This month I’ve noticed more than anything that Jacob is really beginning to watch Finlay in everything that he does, and I can see him almost willing himself to grow up so he can run around with him. He finds him hilarious and I can really see the love between them growing stronger and stronger.
Finlay cannot get enough of his baby brother, its becoming clearer every day that Jacob is his top priority at times, in the mornings he likes to know where he is. At night times he has to say goodnight to him and give him a kiss over anyone else in the room. He just adores him and it makes my heart burst.
This month I’ve definitely noticed Finlay becoming a little more confused by the fact that his baby brother isn’t able to run around with him or dance, and play with his toys. He is always asking for him to come and play, which is really difficult to explain why he cant. However we do often chase after Fin holding Jacob and this is a game he loves.
I love to watch this bond grow day by day, and I really cant wait to see them playing and running around together too.
Being a mummy to two young boys, its so difficult to even put make up on some mornings, but I am a person who cannot physically leave the house without putting anything on! I often find myself watching mummy vloggers, and reading blogs who do similar posts, and I love to see what people are using and grab different ideas, after all, its the one thing us mummys have for us!
First of all, I am terrible for a ‘skincare routine’. I don’t have one, and never have. I am extremely lucky with my skin, I never get spots, and I know I will pay for my lack of it in the future, so please, if you have any tips or recommendations on skincare, please let me know!
Here is what I use!
Diorskin Star Foundation in 022 – This is a fantastic foundation, but pricey! It has great coverage, and gives a dewy look, which I love! I’m really not keen on a matt look.
Estee Lauder Double Wear Concealer in Light – I’m a huge fan of concealers as I am quite dark under my eyes and cannot stand it! A lot of people also find me a strange because i actually put this on my lips before adding any colour as I feel it brings out the colour better, but is quite drying too!
Dior Eyeshadow Palette – Eye Reviver– For my eyes I use the real techniques brush which I find really easy to apply with. I like to wear really neutral eyeshadows as i feel too much colour makes my eyes look really tiny! This palette is so lovely, and the gel liner is really defining, normally I use a pencil liner but since having this I’ve definitely preferred this look!
Estee Lauder Eyeshadow – 08 Unriveled – This is a lovely neutral gold, it has a lovely shimmer to it and is perfect for using all over my eye. It would be lovely to blend to make a smokey eye look, but I just use it on its own.
Bronze Goddess by Estee Lauder – 01 Light – I’ve never been a fan of using a powder to set my foundation as I feel it really dries out my skin, and makes me look really pale! I always use a bronzer over my foundation on my cheek bones, nose, forehead and chin. I love the glow this bronzer gives, it gives a light bronze rather than a real orange look which I really don’t like!
Lancôme Blusher – Blush Subtil 021 – After applying my bronzer, I always define my cheek bones using a blush, I normally use Mac in Dainty, but have recently switched to this lovely one! Its a lovely pink with a slight shimmer, and adds just enough colour to define!
Lancôme Hypnose Mascara – Black – I have used this mascara for a long time, I’ve tried many others but have always come back to this one as it just cant be beaten! Its lovely to apply, and gives a real false look affect. It never clumps and separates my lashes perfectly! It’s definitely my top product to use! I cannot go anywhere without wearing it!
Mac Lipstick – Snob – This is such a popular lipstick. It’s a lovely pink, and stays on for hours! It’s lovely to reapply, and never dries my lips out. It’s a perfect colour for an everyday lipstick! I really don’t think you can beat Mac Lipsticks, they feel so lovely to wear.
Life with a two year old and a 4 month old is far from calm most of the time, and it’s definitely far from quiet! Days are often filled with endless babbling, screaming, laughter, crying and general noise! Which in all honesty is the way I like it, I couldn’t imagine having a calm and quiet house, which brings me to my point of ‘Toddler Silence’.
Now we all know, it’s extremely rare in a household that involves a toddler to have silence, and if there is silence, this normally sends us into a bit of a panic, the unknown of what could be lurking in the next room with the silent toddler. Is he ok? What has he broken? What has he drawn on? Is the room even still standing? It just amazes me what a toddler can do in a few minutes of silence, I honestly believe they have some super powers with speed, it’s unreal!
So one morning this week, we were doing our usual wake up routine, Jack will get Finlay out of bed whilst I feed Jacob in our room, and then when I’m done we head downstairs to start our day. However on this day, just after I’d finished feeding Jacob I was met with a realisation that I hadn’t heard my toddler for a good few minutes, and so this must’ve meant that 1. (The unlikely) that he was just playing nicely, or 2. (The most definite) that he was up to something.
Not only had my silent toddler managed to trash the nursery, he had managed to sneak out of my room with Jacobs formula and proceed to use it as an indoor sandpit!
Although there is no doubt that these times make you feel like the day is just going to be so bad that you might as well go back to bed, they are also precious, hilarious moments that you really never want to forget, because before I know it, he won’t be the silent mischievous toddler, he will be grown up, and I won’t have these little moments to hold onto.
There is no stopping this time in every parents life. As much as most of us often will for the time to come around, so we are able to have an afternoon of peace, and will for them to socialise with others as it is so nice for them to make little friends and begin to socialise in the big world. However, when that time comes, its too quick. Where did my baby go? What if I don’t want an afternoon of peace? What will I do without the afternoon of laughter, making his lunch, and watching cars on repeat? I quite simply don’t want someone else to make his lunch, share his laughter, and make new memories that don’t involve us. But they have to. They have to grow up, and this week, I got my very first glimpse of that.
It’s the complete norm for them to go to Nursery and of course I wouldn’t have that any other way, I of course want him to grow up and make new friends and memories, and gain that independence for himself, but to me its feels so very abnormal. I just cant get my head around him not being here some afternoons, and I feel very anxious about what are essentially strangers looking after my baby, I know he’ll be perfectly safe, but what if he just wants mummy or daddy when he’s upset?
We viewed a lovely Nursery very local to us this week, and it was fantastic, Finlay took to it straight away, and began playing with the other children, and to quite honest, didn’t look back! I felt comfortable because I could see just how happy and ready he is to start this new little chapter in his life. As he was playing away with another child, for a second he stopped, looked up at us, and gave us a little wave, as if to say “Look at me mummy!”, I got all teary eyed and just felt so proud. My little boy is growing up, and I just couldn’t be happier for him. So until September comes around, I really am going to make the most of my days with him.