A Little Tour Of Finlays Bedroom

I love reading these posts and seeing all the different ways parents have decorated their little ones rooms, so I thought I would give it a go and show you all Finlays little bedroom (which we have decorated about 20 times). I am just never happy and always have different ideas of how I would like it!

I will do one of Jacobs Nursery soon, but for now it is covered with junk as its currently unused with Jacob still being in our room!

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I love the Giraffe wall sticker we’ve put in! Its from Next and matches most things in his room!

Cot bed from Mothercare
Bedding from Tesco

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I still haven’t gotten around to filling these gorgeous frames from Mothercares Tusk range! I love them and they go really well with the Jungle theme we were going for! We painted these little shelves ourselves from The Range.
Canvases from Next.

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We have built in wardrobes in all four of the bedrooms which is so handy and really saves space. However we haven’t gotten around to replacing the doors on them and they are so ugly to look at! Hopefully a job for this year!

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I think this candle is absolutely adorable! My mum bought both Fin and Jacob one, they smell just like babies! Everybody the loves the smell of babies!

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When Fin was born, which was November 13, my aunty bought him a Harrods bear for Christmas! I love it and think its such a beautiful gift for him to keep always. She’s also just bought Jacob one for his first Christmas!

The photo frame actually has Finlays hand print next to the photo and I think it was from Mothercare! It was given to me as a gift when he was born and I think its just so lovely and personal!

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Finlay sleeps with his Jellycat bunny that his nanny bought for him when he was a tiny baby! He loves it, I think they are just so cute!

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This is by far my favourite part of Fins room! I absolutely love these wall stickers which we got from Ebay! They were so cheap (around £8) and they are absolutely huge!

I absolutely love to decorate the boys rooms and buy just little bits and pieces! I’m sure we’ll have a different theme come next year!

Chloe

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Our First ‘Siblings Project’ Post

I have been reading many amazing blogs such as Dear Beautiful, MummyDaddyMe, and Bump to Baby. All have such amazing posts, and one that has caught my eye time and time again is the Siblings Project, and even more so now that I have 2 little boys! I feel I can relate to them so much more, and understand how truly wonderful it is to watch your children grow together. The similarities, the differences, the bond. Its just such an amazing time, so I decided that I would quite like to join this little project!

As it’s my first post, and am now on month 3 since my littlest baby entered the world, I thought I would write about how I feel their bond has grown over this time since he was born.

Finlay has adored his little brother Jacob literally from the moment he laid eyes on him. He has such a gentle and kind personality, he has wanted to hold him from day one, give him massive kisses, and stroke his little head. I could not have been any prouder. My heart was so full of love for my two little boys, and Finlay being so kind and gentle with him just completely topped it all off. I think every parent worries how their children will react to a new sibling. I know I definitely did! Constant worries about whether he would feel left out or as if he’d been replaced. But truth be told, I think he completely relishes in the big brother role, and couldn’t be happier about it!

As Jacob is becoming a little bigger and more aware, I can slowly begin to see that precious bond grow. Jacob loves it when Finlay comes over to him in his little chair to talk to him, he is all smiles and giggles when his big brother is in view. Finlay is forever bringing him toys and trying to get him to join in with his little games. I think its so hard for a toddler to comprehend babies are too small, but luckily he seems to just take it if I say Jacob cant do something.

I have to say I think the one moment that has just completely stood out during these 3 months is when Jacob was so upset whilst waiting for a bottle, and I was obviously busy trying to do this as quickly as I could, that I just left him to cry for a bit. Then it happened, and it was like I was watching in slow motion. Finlay just rushed over to Jacob, put his little hand on his head and continued to stroke his hair, all whilst shushing him and trying to put his dummy in. It’s then when I had one of those “we’ve done good” moments.

I could not be any prouder of my two special little boys, and I cannot wait to see them grow and become the best of friends.

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Chloe

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The Me and Mine Project

{The Ordinary Moments 16} #2 – Time With Nanny

This is my 2nd week of joining in with ‘The Ordinary Moments’. I love these posts, I find them easy to write as there are a number of moments in the week that I cherish. I love being able to write them down to look back on. I also love to read others, and how they all vary week by week!

This is my first full week going back to being on my own during the days with the little ones, and I must say I feel much more settled in to life with having two children than I did before Christmas. Before Christmas I’d be lying if I said I thought it was easy. It’s never easy, but this week I really felt we’d turned a corner and I am managing my time with the children a lot better. The main thing I’ve noticed is that I’m definitely finding it easier to get out of the house, although it can still take a long time to actually get out of the door.

My mum only works Mondays and Fridays so on a Tuesday or Thursday we try to find time to spend together with each other and the children. Last Tuesday we decided to head to our local Garden centre (Dobbies) to have some Lunch, they also have a lovely little play area which is great for Finlay to play about in whilst we eat and catch up!

I find that the bond between grandparents and grandchildren is so unique. I always had such a special bond with my Nan, she really was the most amazing lady. I spent a lot of time with her and saw her most days. My most cherished childhood memories always include her and I find that so comforting, especially now that she is no longer with us, I can always look back and say that I never missed a special moment with her. Finlay adores both sets of grandparents, and his face just lights up whenever we go to see them, I just feel its so important that he has that relationship with them.

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Once we had finished eating we spent a bit of time playing with Finlay in the little area they have. They have a lovely little wooden wendy house in there which is so lovely for the children to play in. My mum joined Finlay in there and he absolutely loved it, just the look on his little face shows how much he loves his nanny. So as I sat there watching the pair of them pretend they were in a shop one minute, and then in ‘Finlays House’ the next, I had a moment where I felt I really couldn’t be luckier. Some children aren’t able to see their grandparents as much, and some have never had the chance to meet them. I feel so blessed to be able to share my wonderful boys with them, and they are so grateful that they have that chance too. My parents do so much for my little family, and have given us so much support throughout the years, I really couldn’t imagine not seeing them the amount we do. Sometimes it takes these little days and moments for you to be able to see that there really isn’t anything better that even comes close to having a family.

It’s in the ordinary moments, when you realise you are so extraordinarily lucky.

Chloe

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Suffering From Anxiety After Childbirth

With having such an easy pregnancy with my first child, Finlay who is now 2 years old, it came as quite a shock when the birth didn’t exactly go to plan.

To cut a long story short, it was long, confusing, and I lost a lot of blood (2 Litres). It was quite a traumatic experience, and it took a long time to fully recover. I had a 2nd degree tear, severe anaemia – my HB level was about 7.2, it should be around 12-14.

After this experience and the initial recovery, we were then faced with our little one being diagnosed with GBS ( I have written about that here). So what had already been quite a distressing experience, just shy of 2 weeks later we were faced with the most worrying time of our lives. Add the two of them together, and I was left in a little bit of a state.

It took me a long time to figure out that maybe I wasn’t my usual self, and it took me about a year to finally admit defeat and seek help. For a long time I had been telling myself that I would get over it, and soon be back to my normal self. Plus I also felt a bit silly, I mean there are much worse things that can happen, a lot of people suffer with bad (and much worse) births and all sorts of different problems. I guess I just felt I was being a bit dramatic.

The reality of it was that I really was struggling. Behind the everyday emotions and trying to just troop through, I really feel I was in a bad place. I worried about Finlay ALL of the time. Now don’t get me wrong, every parent worries, it’s just a natural instinct. However my worrying was extreme, I had a thermometer in Finlays ear at least 3 times a day, I would get anxious about people holding him, or taking him into public places. I would take him to the doctor over the smallest cough, mild temperature, any little thing I felt he had I would take him to a doctor about. I kept constantly replaying Finlays birth in my head, and would get flashbacks of all the doctors and midwifes frantically trying to stop the bleeding.

October the following year came and this is when I knew I needed to seek some help. We went on our first holiday abroad to Mallorca. It was such a wonderful holiday, but was soon darkened when we had to come home. I’ve always been a bit anxious flying, but nothing dramatic, I was able to get on with it quite easily. However on our return flight, I completely lost it. We hit a little turbulence going over the Alps, and I completely lost control and had a panic attack. My eyes were blurring, I couldn’t stop asking the flight attendants whether we were going to be ok, I was crying and quite literally out of control. I have never acted this way in my life, I have no idea what came over me! Whether it was because I had Finlay travelling with us for the first time, or the fact we hit quite bad turbulence, I just have no idea! Now when I look back on it, I really do feel quite embarrassed.

After that episode I decided enough was enough and that I need to go to the doctors. He came to the conclusion that I may have been struggling with PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder), I was then referred to a psychologist for an assessment, who then confirmed this.

I have since calmed down a lot, I worry no where near the amount I did. However I am now left with the fear of flying that is so severe, I now feel it impossible to get back on a plane, just the thought of it makes me get that familiar feeling of anxiety. It makes me so sad, I feel so selfish to deprive my family of lovely holidays as a result of this. I can only hope that sometime in the future that this subsides. We’ve been on holiday every single year, and now I cant see us going for a long time.

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Have you suffered anything similar as a result of a traumatic birth?

 

Chloe

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