Loneliness Of Parenthood

Its real. Its so very real, and I don’t believe its anything to feel ashamed about. I have read and seen a lot on the Legacy of Jo Cox, and I really wanted to share my experience for what is a brilliant campaign.

Loneliness can be crushing and soul destroying, and it is something I feel so strongly about. Not just from a parents point of view, but I have worked within care settings where there are elderly who have no one, day in day out other than carers they are alone with no familiar face to see, and I have seen first hand what it can do to a person, how it can make a person lose hope and faith in the world because they simply see it as they are alone with no one to care whether they are here or not. But that isn’t true. I cared, as I’m sure many others did too.

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5 Places I Want To Explore

From before I can even remember, I have always been fortunate enough to have been abroad pretty much every year since I was around 3, up until Finlay was 1. Since then we haven’t been abroad and have stuck to little holidays in this country in stead. This has been partly down to Jacob being born, and I just cant face a flight with the little wriggler, but the main issue is that out of no where I have become absolutely TERRIFIED at even the thought of flying. I mean I’ve never really enjoyed it and there has always been a bit of fear there but I’ve never been to a point where I physically cant get on a plane, and if I’m totally honest, it sucks.

I’m not exactly sure what triggered it, but I had a panic attack on the flight back from Mallorca when Finlay was 10 months old, and I’ve never experienced anything like it. There was turbulence and I just lost it, my eyes went black, I felt like I was going to be sick, I couldn’t keep still and I just remember I kept going on and on at the flight attendant about how it ‘wasn’t normal’ for the plane to be shaking. *Hangs head in absolute shame*. How embarrassing! It’s totally out of character for me to act this way and I’m so embarrassed by it, but at the same time, I couldn’t help it. Real fear does strange things to you, and this was definitely that! I don’t think all the evil going on in the world recently has helped but I don’t believe that’s all to blame for it.

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Jacob at 15 months

My Little baby, although sadly, you’re probably more toddler than baby, and that makes mummys heart really hurt. I think it’s because you’re probably my last baby, and the fact that you are still so tiny doesn’t help matters. You’re such a petite little man, you still fit comfortably into 9-12 months, though we are getting there slowly. You’re wearing more and more 12-18 month things these days so you are growing my darling, its just a tad on the slow side!


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March Holiday Lust List

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So I’ve seen a few of these around on other blogs and I love to look at them, also by making these the husband may get a hint! Although I wont count on it.

We are off to Bluestone Wales in March, and its very outdoors/activity based which I am so excited about, but I must admit that I do not have the wardrobe to suit and have been looking at a few lovelies to add to my holiday list!

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